My Life So Far (2)

 

I was never happy, my family is one of them which is just not meant to be together, my father is abusive and he controls everything, from my hairstyle to what kind of clothes I must wear. I have lost my confidence because of my dark childhood memories, I was bullied the entire time in school and my father used to tell my teachers to be hard on me. My entire life until college was fucked up. I was born and bought up by my grandparents, and when I moved back to my father's house, there were fights every day. I was tired of seeing my mom crying the whole time. At school, I was made to realize how dumb, ugly, and poor I was. I had no friends because all the beautiful rich kids were grouped together. I used to see girls with their boyfriends and used to feel inferior. During my 9th grade, my math teacher told me she felt pity for my parents for the kind of kid I was. My result went down and my grades were drowning.

I had to decide something for myself, I started working hard, I used to complete all the lessons at home before the teacher taught us in school. My math teacher for 10th grade was a very kind woman who believed in me and would praise me for my hard work. I somehow managed to get into the top 15 kids of my grade. During my high school, puberty hit me pretty well and I could sense the boys getting into me, surely I was desperate but never dated anyone till I got into one of the top colleges of my country.

 After I went to college I realized there was a life beyond those dark memories of my school childhood and of course boys.

 My father never stopped his abusive behavior, he still hates me, my mom and my siblings always have my back and are very supportive. I am glowing and growing with time. 

At one point in my life, I was attempting suicide and here I am today, totally live and a better version of myself and very much thankful for everything that has happened till now.

I have accepted the fact that life will never be easy, but I'll have to be stronger and there's no other way!